that's been buried for years. All the dead wood from jungles and cities on fire can't replace or relate, can't release or repair.
Take my hand and I'll show you what was and will be.
It secretly makes me really sad that no one has ever thrown me a surprise birthday… when all my close friends have had at least one. Hmm..
Walk out of my bedroom to find my kitchen table gone.. yupp that’s cool.
Roommate decides to sell it without even mentioning it.. that’s cool too.
Doorbell has rung three times since the table has been sold, people wanting to still buy it…that’s cool.
Roommate doesn’t even answer the door, I’ve answered it every fucking time cause she’s too busing horning around with her boyfriend…
This day is just so cool.
I overheard a conversation the other day… between two girls.
They were talking about terrible things that people have said to them or called them.
One of the girls eventually said.. “Honestly, the worst thing someone could call be is ‘weird’ or ‘not normal’, it makes me feel sick to my stomach.”
And this just made me really, really sad. Sad for her.. because she was deeply serious.
Biggest pet peeve:
When my roommate loses the remote somewhere inside our HUGE ASS couch.
Seriously, it happens every time. Both the TV and the DVD remote are now lost…seriously, how hard is it to keep the remote like.. on the table when you’re watching TV so it NEVER gets lost. omg.
I think it’s safe to say children under the age of ten terrify me.
I literally just stand there stiffly with a fake smile on my face till they walk away cause I don’t know how to talk to them.
Just came home from a three hour physics lab with a completely useless DRUNK lab partner who couldn’t keep his fucking hands off me I’m so rattleddddd I wanna punch someone in the face.
I do this to myself all the time…
I get myself really attached to someone in my life who I start to consider to be a mother/father figure.. and they claim they really care about me, and they claim that they see me as a child and so I feel like the relationship is mutual and real and then shit falls apart and it’s like, what did I expect?
I feel like your family are normally the only ones you can depend on and trust and love 100% but… when you don’t have that.. I feel like there’s no point in trying to replace that 100% trustworthy relationship with anyone else because it will always fail.
When your friends tell you that you used to be so much fun and awesome when you were with someone… who you haven’t been with for a good three years now… I have no idea how to take that :/
Am I supposed to be sad? Sad that I know I used to be a whole lot more interesting when I was with him? Sad that even I miss how I was three years ago sometimes?…
Or should I be pissed.. that they even said that? Why would you say that to someone? Basically saying they liked me more when I was with him… which.. I’m not and 0% chance never ever will be like.. wtf.
Either way.. it got me thinking.. and I really do miss the person I was three years ago with him. But. I don’t miss him… I don’t miss that part of the relationship.. I just miss what he was able to bring out of me.. if that makes any sense. The passion and interest and intelligence and curiosity.. that I had, because of him.
That’s what I miss.
The moment.. you realize someone is hurting you but… you can’t bitch about it cause you realize you hurt them first.
